So I had a mini break down in front of a colleague last night. He understood but I felt awful. I still do in fact.
This depression lark is really hard to deal with.

Starting to feel guilty

So I went back to work in April when Ethan was 9 months old and have felt guilty about leaving him but until recently I've been ok with it. However the last few weeks have been tough I've been full time and have felt it hard to get someone to look after him. It is starting to feel like no one wants to have him for me whilst I work.
At the end of the day if I could afford to send him to nursery I would but my partner and myself do not earn enough to cover most bills each month let alone a big child care bill. I'm also finding myself getting short with Ethan very easily and I don't like it.
I'm running out of ideas of how to ease the stress of being a working mum.