So last night we fought. It was a pretty intense fight. It had been building up for weeks. I don't always feel loved anymore let alone appreciated. He always uses work as an excuse for being tired. He forgets I get up the same time with him every day. Just because I'm on maternity leave doesn't mean I don't work hard. I have a 14 (nearly 15) week old to take care of all day. Unlike him I don't get days off from it. He hurt me so badly and when he went to sleep on the sofa I sent him this text.
"I find it difficult these days talking to you as you seem to always use work as an excuse. I'm fed up of putting everything on hold for you to be happy. I'm fed up of pretending to be something I'm not and liking things I don't just to please others. If I wanted to be treated like a mug I would of stayed with my ex. I'm sick of nagging you all the time. It feels like I'm only around to take care of Eth and for the occasional lay. I'm tired of having the same argument all the time and the only way to end it may be to end it! They say having a baby changes relationships but I never expected it to drive a wedge between us. Don't get me wrong whatever happens between us Eth will grow up knowing that both his parents are there for him. Something I never had."
He apologised and we had a long talk but I can honestly say it still feels pretty tense between us this morning.
