It's returned. I've never officially be diagnosed with PND but I'm pretty sure I have it. My dad suffers from depression and so did my mum. She was even admitted to a mental health ward for a little bit. I went to the doctors nearly 9 months ago and told him I think I may have post natal depression but he just fobbed me off and said that because I feel bonded with my son then I don't and stop being so silly.
I've considered changing doctors as I was really happy with the way he just seemed to want to get me out of there.
The truth is I have so many similar symptoms as PND that it seems obvious to me that I am actually suffering from it.
I had a difficult birth. I was induced on the Wednesday morning at 7am and in labour from about midday but Ethan wasn't born until Friday morning at 5:37 am. He was delivered by ventouse and I was in quite bad shape. They were prepping surgery for me. All this I found out afterwards. I can't fault the midwife but as far as the hospital went I was very disappointed.
Anyway we were allowed to go home on the Friday at 2pm. No one came to see me I had to beg for someone to come and check up on me. All this and it was my first baby! The care defiantly wasn't there.
Ethan is now 17 months old and yes I have bonded with him, he's my best buddy, but I just don't feel right. People have commented on how I'm not the same person as I used to be. I'm down, irritable and just not the same Jenny I was before I had him. I find it hard to get up in the mornings. It takes a lot of effort to do anything. Well anything that doesn't involve Ethan. He's my life.
His dad and I are together but sometimes I consider leaving him just because I constantly hurt him.
I'm so far down I can't see daylight anymore.
